I feel the sacred and connected lives within the non-sacred and disconnected in a form something like a chrysalis; the unsacred and disconnected may need to be touched with consciousness to be unfolded like a trauma response trapped in the body where the movement or energy needs to somatically unfold and be slowed down in order to discharge and complete itself.
A body symptom or illness may need to be touched with tenderness and the power behind it accessed in multiple sensory channels before it unfolds like a flower and the medicine powers and benevolent myth beings that are hiding behind it reveal themselves. Polarization is often necessary before negentropy and depolarization, conflict resolution and communication and mutual collaboration between antagonists can occur. The world of disconnection or Wetiko may be something like the brief and highly competitive stage of bramble, bracken and other pioneer species which comes about before the more mutualistic co-operative climax vegetation of a forest.
The shaman has to go through a stage of ‘divine madness’ where he or she is exposed to the chaosmic vortex of the spirit world to develop a deeper relationship with that world before healing others. To put it in terms of systems theory, out of control ‘positive feedback loops’ may be a necessary stage to go through before homeostatis at a deeper level of complexity and integration is achieved. Similarly the more beautiful world our hearts know is possible, the age of reunion, may hide like a seed within the world of disconnection or wetiko, which incubates it; wetiko may be like a kind of folded up, unprocessed, unattenuated or larval form of the more beautiful world.
You don’t necessarily need to push or strive to reach some perfect dream or calling. Instead of pushing or ascending towards it, another way is to BE that dream or calling. Come FROM that dream instead of desperately grasping towards it; live it with allies and friends now. Embody that calling in your very muscles and bones, and invite others to share in it and meet you there if they feel moved to.
The endless ascent towards some perfect place may be deluding us. The endless search for some false transcendent state, something higher, some perfect state of personal power, strength, approval, wealth, status, economic growth, transhumanism or spiritual development looks promising, but what if this is not leading us towards some promised land, but towards a barren wasteland?
What if the source of life is simply not found there, but is found when we descend downwards towards our vulnerability, towards sensory embodiment, towards our relationship with our ecology, towards the powers behind our shadow energies, towards grief and life with all its troubles, magnificence and imperfections?
Perhaps it is our vulnerability not our perfection that will draw our soul community towards us. Perhaps our quest for perfection and ascent will in fact lead us away from the sacred fire where our soul community is waiting for us. Perhaps our attempt to reach some perfect status or safety or health or spiritual state before meeting our sacred lover will in fact ensure that we never meet them, or never come into relationship with them. Perhaps it is our vulnerability, not our perfection that will draw us into the warm embrace of our greatest lover.
Perhaps our vulnerability and our grief and joy and love will shine out like a beacon fire and draw our true loves towards us. Perhaps it is our vulnerability and our intimacy with life which will enable us to redream our human presence on the earth into a regenerative, mutually beneficial relationship with the beings of nature and with each other.
Instead of ascending further we might need to go back the other way. Stop the ascent and instead descend downwards into paradise. Descend downwards towards your vulnerability, towards relationship, towards your grief, towards your uproarious joy, towards your imperfection. Descend downwards towards your sensual body, towards your relationship with local animals and plants and find the circle of warm hearted community who have always been waiting for you.
Don’t run away and be alone again, don’t just run away to that high timeless place, don’t run to that retreat, when your soul family are all here waiting for you, right here, or not far away. Do something wild and outrageous and be with community instead. Come down to the great, celebratory tear-filled feast of life, the house of the world. Your soul community are here waiting for you, you don’t need to be alone again. Give up the desire for immortality, ascent and perfection and instead choose vulnerability, imperfection, embodiment, mutual empowerment, community and intimacy.
Don’t try to manifest abundance by just thinking about abundance, but by being it; BE abundance in your body, in your sense experience, in the offerings you give to local birds or animals or mythbeings, in your generosity to those around you. Be abundance in your heartfelt wish for others to be seen in all their beauty and vulnerability, in the gifts that you give that support other’s deepest needs and desires. Allow life to become deliciously aroused by pouring abundance towards you. BE a kind of generous, praising, superabundance sensuality body to draw or magnetise abundance towards you, so you become overwhelmingly delicious to all abundance.
Don’t just follow your plan, follow the person. Don’t just follow what you want to happen, follow what is actually happening. Don’t just help in the way that you want to, help in the way life needs. Drop the conceptual plan and follow nature. Loosen attachment to the plan and follow the unusually beautiful, the strange, weird, troubling or surprising.
Behind the shadow-like energy and embodiment of desperately searching for approval, when it is fully tenderly held, alchemically cooked and processed, there can be the power of being ‘enough’, being embodied love and attracting friendship, love and immense bounty and abundance by being who you are
Behind the shadow like energy of desperately searching for love, safety and security, when awareness is brought to them and they are fully and tenderly held and processed in an embodied way, there may be the medicine of BEING safety, in an immensely attractive embodied supergroundedness. Superground and root yourself to such an extent that you become incredibly attractive to all love bounty and abundance.
It seems to be a frequent occurence that people think they are dying or going crazy, when really something new, wild and miraculous and helpful to the earth and the human community is being born in them. There is often a kind of ‘small death’ as many parts need to to be broken down and reconstituted. What is needed is often someone to help them to recognize that this process is not just some terrifying thing, but something necessary and helpful to all, someone who can act as a kind of midwife to the birth of this new being
Ancestors don’t just stay the same. Perhaps when honoured by some gratitude, brave offering or healing, or perhaps due to some other unforeseen reason, they may change. They may talk to each other across time. The magicians may teach the warriors. The warriors may teach the magicians. The farmers may teach the warriors. The magicians and druids may teach the farmers. The hunter-gatherers and shamans may teach the farmers and they may teach the ‘modern’ ancestors too.