At the very start, at the beginning people might try to become mindful or aware or feelings, to be present all the time. To do this requires actually going into and sensing feelings to start with. Once this has happened a person might be able to get a wider view, a larger view of their feelings, sometimes described as ‘detachment’ or spaciousness. The self is loosened a bit and seems to be a little more process-like. This might be the beginning of a continual dual process of both going deeper into experiences and simultaneously gaining a larger wider more fluid perspective
There might be a tendency to leave it there, and to walk around being very careful and mindful all the time, with one part of the self constantly ‘looking at’ another part, avoiding any loud disruptions and probably lacking a sense of humour about the whole thing. Or you can go further and get even more detachment, even more spaciousness and live in a detached, rarified but perhaps dehumanized, luminous, trance world.
But there is another probably more fruitful, more human, grief filled and joy-filled path to take at this stage: to descend deeper into your experience, to process and bring tenderness and awareness to inner sense feelings, emotions, movements, interception, even looking at stretching and unstretching of muscles, eye movements, song, stories, dreams, synchronicities, relationship patterns, belief patterns and myth beings. To walk the dragon path deeper into the mythworld and find the myth beings and sentient powers behind all problems and troubles.
This path might involve connecting with the sentient earth based powers in the larger body of the land itself. To find the beauty, songs, creations and magic and medicine powers behind problems in community; even to grow together with the damaged and blessed enemies in the exhilarating and terrifying experiences of our living histories on the lands and on the streets. To walk a path where the self is annihilated not once or two times, but again and again and again.
Then one of the things that might happens is that by ‘going in’ even deeper a person gains an even wider perspective, where everything and its opposite seem to converge. In this larger view, the self becomes fluid and river-like and feelings, sensations and even myth beings and non-human becomings pass through you, as if they are organisms moving through a living ecosystem. The self becomes a process, it becomes loosened and becomes a kind of fluid, dynamic, flowing ecological self; the great Self, which is really a kind of ecological process, emerges as a result of allowing larger forces of nature to move through you.